Well Christmas is over, and I survived with an average amount of misgendering from my grandparents. They call me Harris, so I guess we’re moving in the right direction… sigh. Christmas with Mom and Sarah was good. I like my presents, and Mom made me a stocking with my name on it.
We have family friends that we consider to be family that I haven’t come out to. I would like to see them, but I’m not sure how it would go. There are some people that I would like to see that I know wouldn’t accept me. It’s kind of sad to know that there are people that I’ve grown up with that I probably won’t see again. Maybe I should give them the benefit of the doubt and try, but I don’t know that I could take the rejection.
I didn’t hear from my dad on Christmas, but he did text me a week ago saying that he wanted to talk to me. I didn’t respond. It’s just not worth it.
I think my chest is healing well. I can’t wait to see it without the bandages and tape. I can tell that it’s going to be really good though. Everything seems to be going as the doctor said it would. It’s really stressful though. I just hope I don’t mess anything up. I am excited to stop wearing the Ace bandage in a week.
Yesterday was nine months on testosterone. I’m trying to think of any changes that I haven’t talked about. I don’t think that I’ve said that my feet have grown. They’ve grown about a size. I hope that they’ll grow another size. I’m about a men’s 7 now, if I can grow into an 8 then I should be able to wear any men’s shoes I want. I love men’s dress shoes so I get pretty frustrated that it’s so hard to find good-looking ones in my size. I’ve found that Stacy Adams is a good boy’s dress shoes brand and Tomboy Toes makes an affordable dress shoe in smaller sizes. If anyone has any suggestions on affordable dress shoes, I’d appreciate it.
My facial hair is starting to be visible in pictures. I’ve got two weeks to grow something acceptable before I have to shave for my job next semester. It’s not looking too good right now though… haha! I’ll probably leave my mustache regardless.
I’m here at the Fort Lauderdale airport waiting to fly back to Atlanta. Mom, Sarah, and I just left Dr. Garramone’s office. He took the bandages off to take a look at my chest, and he said everything looks great.
Dr. Garramone and his staff were really great throughout this whole process. I gave him some crap about him being a Florida Gator, and he took it pretty well… Haha. Yeah we lost this year, but Gators still wear jean shorts!
I’m so excited right now. I have a happiness and freedom that I don’t think I’ve ever felt in my life, and I’ve had the privilege of doing some pretty great things in my life. I’ve been a state champion, played college golf, studied abroad in Barcelona for a summer, been accepted and attend a great law school, and I think this tops the cake. To see the man in the mirror that I’ve been dreaming about is a truly amazing feeling.
Mom and Sarah did a great job taking care of me this week. I know it wasn’t easy to change the drains and deal with my post-op grumpyness… Haha
Well I’m here at the beach, looking at the ocean from the balcony and drinking a beer. Life is good!
I just finished my third semester of law school so that means I am officially halfway done. I can’t believe it. It’s flying by. I think overall this has been the best semester that I’ve had so far mentally and emotionally. Law school is not easy, folks. I am continuously reminded of the amazing support system that I have at the law school. UGA Law is an amazing place. Don’t get me wrong, law school is an emotional mind [game,] but the people that I interact with on a daily basis are wonderful. I am pretty sad that I just finished my last class with my favorite professor. I’ve already taken all of the classes that she’s going to teach in the next year and a half.
So I’m here in Fort Lauderdale for my top surgery. I have my pre-op appointment tomorrow morning, and my surgery is on Tuesday. Everything is still a little surreal at this point. I’m excited though. I’m probably going to be nervous, especially after my appointment tomorrow. I’m glad to have my mom and my sister here, even though I feared for my life many times on the 11 hour drive down here!
So as I said in a follow-up comment to last week’s blog, I chose Dr. Garramone because of a friend’s recommendation, and I did a lot of research. I quickly realized that Dr. G has by far the best and most consistent results. I am lucky that, relatively speaking, he is so close by. Talking in detail about the procedure isn’t something that I’m up for right now, but I’ll probably talk more about it in the future and maybe post some pictures.
This time next week I’ll be in Ft. Lauderdale for my surgery. I can’t believe it’s coming so soon. I’m definitely feeling all kinds of emotions right now, which is difficult in light of the fact that I have two finals left. I have my Criminal Procedure final on Tuesday and my Election Law final on Thursday. Well I’ve got to get back to it…