This past week has certainly been eventful. Thursday was Trans Day of Visibility. As part of our law school LGBTQ group (OUTlaw) I organized a panel of trans people for an event at the law school. I think people really enjoyed it and learned a lot. I was proud that the panel showed the gender spectrum (2 trans men, 1 trans woman, and 1 genderqueer person). I’ll probably head up OUTlaw next year, but I hope to find another couple of people to help me out. I’m already trying to brainstorm events for the fall. I have a few things in mind so far.
So this is one week on testosterone. My voice has already lowered a little bit based on the voice videos that I’ve made. I’ve also noticed a few more personal changes. I met another trans guy at the happy hour hosted by our LGBTQ graduate school group. He said that he had some insomnia when he first started T. I’ve had that as well. I haven’t had any other bad side effects though. I am excited about all of the changes that are happening/about to happen. But I’m a little nervous about doing the shot next week by myself. I bet it will be okay though.
Yesterday I talked to my dad for the first time since early July. I stopped talking to him when I came out as trans last summer. Based on our history I didn’t figure that he would want anything to do with me once I came out. I told him that. He didn’t have much of a response. He did say that he still loves me and all that. He wants me to call him again later so we could talk some more, but I don’t know if I will. Honestly it’s better that we don’t have a relationship. He has a mercurial temperament, and I can’t trust him. I don’t want that kind of person in my life.
I’m slowly learning who I need to let go of and who I need to hold on to. It’s not easy, but I know I’ll be better off in the long run. I have a lot of good things going for me right now so I’m not going to let anyone mess with that.
All the best,