Roller Coaster Ride

Hey everyone!

Well my first week back at school has been quite a week. It’s been nice to see everyone again. I got my grades back on Monday, and let’s just say that I have a lot of work to do. At the same time it could have been a lot worse. I’ll be setting up meetings with my professors this week to see where I can improve and making a plan to do a lot better this semester.

On Wednesday I got the wind knocked out of me so to speak. I have a new professor this semester, and when she called on me in class she called me Ms. instead of Mr. When I first heard her say it my heart sunk. Then anger came, and for a second I thought about asking her a smart-ass question. But I ended up just correcting her and then looked back down at my book to try and answer her question. I didn’t really get to see her reaction because I was trying to come up with an answer, but one of my friends in the class told me that her facial expression seemed to suggest that she knew she messed up and felt bad. Later that afternoon she sent me an email apologizing. I’m not one to process sadness that quickly, and I was busy doing things after class. So it really didn’t hit me until I got home that afternoon. I cried. It stung like hell. My friend described being misgendered like getting a paper cut. One or two of them just sting pretty bad, but once you get enough of them it’s death by a thousand paper cuts. It’s not like I don’t get misgendered on a semi-regular basis, but I have a certain amount of comfort at the law school that it isn’t going to happen there. It just caught me off-guard I guess.

I have another new professor this semester, so I need to figure out something so it doesn’t happen again. I know it was a mistake, and she didn’t mean to hurt me. Still, that didn’t make it hurt any less. I want to find out why my professor called on me wrong. I don’t know if something was on the roll or if she just looked at me and assumed.  I don’t really want to set up a meeting with her, but I don’t want to email and ask either. I’ve got to figure out something pretty soon though.

I did get to get away from Athens yesterday. I went to Young Harris to watch the basketball games and see my mentors/”fairy godparents.” It was so very good to see them and catch up. I got to talk with others from my days at YHC, including a friend who also happens to have a law degree. I still can’t believe she chose UT over UGA! What nonsense! Anyway, I capped off a great day with supper with an old roommate at a restaurant that overlooks Lake Chatuge. Going to the mountains for the day was exactly what I needed. The enchanted valley really is a wonderful place.

Hope everyone has a great week!

All the best,

Harris

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Back to the Real World

Hey everyone!

Well I’m back in Athens for another semester. I’ve been working on Constitutional law for most of the day, and it has been pretty interesting. I can definitely tell that I’m a little rusty with legal reading, but I suppose I’ll pick it back up pretty quickly. I have been working out for the past couple of days that I’ve been back… we’ll see how long that lasts!

Overall my break was pretty good. Family members did a pretty good job with calling me Harris and such. I feel a lot more rested going into this semester than I did fall semester.

Well my grades come out tomorrow so send some good thoughts my way!

All the best,

Harris

The Year Ahead

Hello everyone!

I hope everyone had a very happy holiday season. Since everyone seems to be making resolutions for the new year, I thought that I’d share some thoughts on my upcoming year. I think that my “resolution” is to better myself physically, mentally, and emotionally. My self-care hasn’t necessarily been the best over the past semester, so I hope to really make improvements in 2016. I have transition-related plans that really will benefit from taking care of myself. I am hoping to have top surgery next December so losing weight will be a top priority for me during the course of the year. I’m guessing that I’ll have to stop ordering multiple $5 pizzas as supper for the week…

Anyway, I’m also going to make working out a priority. I was pretty good about going to the gym while I lived in Atlanta, so I’m hoping to get back with it once the semester starts. I’m hoping to work out three times a week. I think that’s pretty reasonable.

Like I mentioned in the last post, I have to see a therapist to get approved for testosterone so I think it will be a good opportunity to talk about some of the things I’ve been feeling/thinking about. There’s a couple of gender therapists in Athens so I hope that I will like one of them. UGA’s LGBT center highly recommended one therapist, so I guess I’ll try her first.

I hope that in the year ahead I can also strengthen friendships and make new ones. I will really need to surround myself with good people in the coming year for support with all of the changes that will be taking place. I wouldn’t be where I am today without the support of my family, friends, and friends who are family.

I’m really excited about 2016 and hope to make it the best year yet. As always, please share my blog with your friends, and feel free to post comments, questions, or things that y’all want me to talk about in the future.

Happy New Year!

Harris